It happens in three's?

First of all - Yes, I do live near the 35w Bridge in Minnesota that collapsed last week and I’m ok. (13 miles but I travel that bridge often) So far, I don’t know anyone personally that was harmed. I’m lucky. Thank you all for your concern. I appreciate it.

Life has changed drastically in the last week or so and I’m simply overwhelmed with grief about all of it.

Little girl’s mother is back in town suddenly after a year and it has turned our finally routine schedule upside down, backwards and forwards. It’s disheartening to watch the change in little girl as she tries to make sense of this all. It hasn’t even been a week and she is already a different child. I love her and just can’t stand to watch her in pain but there is little I can do. All I can do is be there for her.

After my latest doctor visit, I have been referred back to the Mayo Clinic for a consultation for another surgical procedure. This is devastating to me in many ways. I don’t have the money for the gas and hotel bills I will have to endure. I don’t have the time to take off work for this type of thing. I most likely will not be able to participate in the Northshore Inline Marathon that I have been training for a year for. I will more than likely need a full work up done on my pre-existing heart condition which is always very invasive and painful. Plus, because of this recent discovery I won’t be able to continue my search for another job because of my need for medical insurance right now.

Despite loathing getting up in the morning to come to work - hating my job now has to take a back seat to my life. It feels as if my life is in shambles with the exception of the love I have from my relationships. It’s something to be thankful for.

This too will pass…