He's Gone

I need to realize that it’s time to move on. Obviously choices were made months ago that I must come to terms with.

My health is again poor, I have no job, very little money, the broken promises, the threats of never seeing her again….

For months I have put this off and even tried to forget it even happened. I just thought he was that guy. I mean, we were SO fricken happy for so long but in reality it was a one sided thing for many months.

Well, come to find out for longer than I thought.

I know it’s not gonna be easy to finally face the truth of everything that was involved but I need to find some kind of peace with it. I mean, why not now? I have a chance to start EVERYTHING new.

I know by doing this I may lose her too and I don’t know if I’m ready yet but I’m forced to try. I can only hope she will remember me when she is older.

As for him, he forgot about me months ago. Well, he SAYS he hasn’t but recent actions speak volumes and last night I got the message loud and clear.

I hate this but I suppose when your so far down like I am now it can only get better. Right? I can only hope.

I hate this.