False Hope

I have been feeling so much better the last 2-3 days. I mean, I have energy to clean the house, do dishes and even paint pictures. I went to the dentist today for a recheck. It was a 5 minute appointment. No big deal.

I was sitting in the waiting room doing NOTHING and BAM - a full on anxiety attack. Sweating, pain in my chest, dizzy, faint, shaking hands - body and a racing heart. I couldn't control it. It took everything I had to not burst out crying in the office.

I made it through the recheck but barely - I head over next door to the doctors office (they are in the same building) to see if they could check my blood pressure and ensure I'm OK.

148/88 - not too bad but considering I'm on major blood pressure medicine it isn't the best.

I explained the situation and my doctor's nurse remembered me. She instructed me to, drive home, take some meds and relax that I was experiencing a panic attack from my condition.

I'm so disappointed. I thought things were going well. The first time I leave the house in 4-5 days and I'm sick again.

I want my life back.