Update

Tuesday I went to the doctor after experiencing some major chest pain on Monday night. The doctor explained that I'm stuck where I am with the symptoms and there is just nothing they can give me to ease the pain or make this recovery go smoother.

Obviously I'm not improving. My blood pressure is up. My lab work done last week is up compared to the original blood work done that put me on medical leave in the first place. The doctor on Tuesday has extended my 2 week leave for another 2-4 weeks.

I'm crushed.

I mean, no one likes their jobs but seriously, I need to work - or DO something. I'm getting back into my art. I'm writing a bit more but it's insane being couped up this long doing nothing.

I'm gaining weight. A lot of it. Sitting around, not being able to skate - being HUNGRY all the time no matter how much I have eaten. I can barely clean my house at times I'm so tired and out of breath.

I'm so tired. Fighting for air - the hot flashes are insane. Once the medications wear off I'm nearly frozen in pain and palpitations. I've nearly got the medication schedule down to a science so they overlap by a few minutes.

I'm trying to push up my endocrinologist appointment so that I could possibly have some relief but I fear that she will have the same news for me. I can't imagine this lasting much more than it has but I have no choice.

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers so I can find the strength to get through this. I'm trying my hardest to keep my spirits up but the depression this throws a person into is hard to fight.

As always I'll keep you updated as I know more.