Have You Heard??

What would the year be without a mandatory medical leave?

Yup. I'm home.
Sitting here.
Board.
Lonely.
Sick & tired.

About two months ago I noticed the symptoms but brushed them off because I had recently gained weight and thought it was a result of my lack of diligence. What I didn't know is that the weight gain was part of the symptoms as well.

I was diagnosed with Sub acute Thyroiditis. Basically my thyroid has an infection in it and has started to release all of it's stored hormones into my body all at once instead of over a period of time. Because of all this excess hormone in my blood stream it causes my heart to race nearly constantly, my body thinks it's getting a work out so it burns whatever it can find and it's mostly protein from my muscles. This causes my muscles to deteriorate and I suffer from muscle aches and weakness. Lifting my purse has proven to get me tired.

For real.

This over-activity of my body also causes me to have excessive heat produced and in turn triggers sweating to try and cool me down. So far this has mostly happened at night when I'm trying to sleep yet fail miserably. I haven't slept a full nights sleep in nearly 3-4 months. That is until last night when I attempted to take my first prescription sleeping aid to help me through this.

As you might have guessed from all that my body is going through and the lack of sleep, I'm tired. I'm so tired that I could fall asleep sitting up while driving with the windows open. Yes. this has happened most recently. Luckily I just nodded off and I was close to home. That being said I am very tired but when I actually try to fall asleep, it doesn't happen. It doesn't work.

IT DOES NOT COMPUTE.

I'm not sure why but it is was it is.

I have an increased appetite due to the hyperthyroidism symptoms this causes and for the most part I haven't gained all that much weight. You would think I'm in heaven but I'm not. I can eat all I want and not gain weight? The down side is that once the hormones are done dumping in my system and there are no more to go around until my thyroid starts working again I will be Hypothyroid which means I will GAIN weight without eating much at all.

So you may have guessed that I'm taking advantage of the luxury of eating now. CANDY!!!! So even though I'm Hyperthyroid I have gained 2-3 pounds anyway due to my love affair with peeps and marshmallows. I figure if I just eat normally today, I can shed those in no time. That is until the body shifts the other way....

You would think that with some exercise and this condition I would be thin as a thin mint but I have been strictly prohibited from doing just about EVERYTHING. No exercise, No SKATING, no lifting, no stress, no NOTHING for fear my body will not heal or worse yet create more damage to my already damaged heart and cause a heart attack or stroke.

I can't even work. Not like that is a huge upset for me but really, working is what I know how to do - it gives me some sort of purpose. I know I can find other things to occupy my time but it still bothers me. If my body was normal I would still be able to work on a limited schedule but because I have previous conditions with my heart the idea of me working part time was kiboshed.

Perhaps if my job was remotely non stressful it wouldn't be a problem but my job can be hell most of the time if your not in tip top shape. One mistake, one mis-step, one forgetful mind and all hell can break loose. With that said, this condition also causes confusion and anxiety. I noticed the last 2 weeks especially at work, I have been forgetting all kinds of things & it's not like me.

Other symptoms are lack of breath, shaking hands, heavy eye lids, staring eyes, pain in neck, and other uncomfortable things... Basically I feel like crap all the time and I'm super-duper tired. Anyway, that is the scoop. I'm home. I'm sick and I'm bored.

I would clean my house but apparently I have weeks to do that.

This sucks.