Huh?

Well, this is the first morning of my life that I had absolutely no where to be in my working career.

I slept in today until I got a phone call asking to go to lunch with the girls from work. I can't face them. I miss them already and I can't even imagine what we could possibly talk about over lunch that would make me feel better.

People don't know what to say. I never did when it happened to other people. Unless they have a paycheck and medical benefits in their pocket, I really don't want to see or talk to anyone.

I realize that this is fates way of pushing me forward to do the things I truly want to do but it's premature. I'm not ready and I need health insurance. I mean, yes, I have the time to paint, finish my house, write and whatever else I wanna do but I need a job.

I always have a job.

Looking for a job is my job. I'm could start selling my artwork on EBAY? I don't know what else to do because at this point, I need all the extra cash I can pile up even if I'm eligible for unemployment. It won't be enough to keep this condo and I've worked too hard all my life to lose all of this now.

It's Christmas in 24 days and I have nothing to give my nieces and nephew. I mean, I have some stuff already because I tend to buy throughout the year but not what they really want. I mean, M's B-day is in 12 days.

Seven other people got cut yesterday. Well, four people got laid off and three people got their job hours cut or their position was reallocated to doing something else. This was the fourth or fifth round of lay-off's since I have been there.

I guess my number came up.