I am. I can. I will.

Tonight was a good night.

I lost 4.6 pounds this past week which means I lost the 3 pounds I gained last week plus 1.6 more. I worked hard for it being I had a very rough start of the week which was no one's fault but my own.

I feel better about where I am with this but I know I need to stay focused. Losing weight this way hasn't been the hardest thing I have ever done but it's for sure up there with some big stuff in my life and could easily turn into a 'hardest thing' if I lose myself again.

I know this whole thing is forever and sometimes that overwhelms me. I mean, I will have to write down, count and weigh what I eat forever and if I stop, I will gain weight. It's that simple and I know it.

Tonight's meeting message? Start focusing on the positive things instead of beating ourselves up for the bad things. This is something I not only need to help with my struggle with food but also my personal life.

I tend to worry too much and it is usually for nothing. Even if I know there is nothing I can do about something but worry, I do it. A family gift I'm told. A nervous tick. I curse I have struggled with my entire life.

I need to let go of the negative, not only for my weight loss but also for my sanity. Who knew Weight Watchers was so insightful?