Knowing.

This past weekend I got a feeling You know, one of those gut feelings you get when something is going down with someone close to you? Or you dream something that happens the next day?

I get them all the time. I don't talk about them much because people tend to A.) freak out on me when things come true or B.) they blow me off and think I'm some nutso freak from the loony farm. Either way, the feeling was there and it felt horrible. I knew that this feeling was going to be life changing.

Over lunch, my 'feeling' or whatever it is that you want to call it was confirmed and although I shouldn't be surprised -- I am.

Although I'm disappointed and hurt, part of me is relieved. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later. I guess part of me was hoping that it wouldn't happen at all and I was wrong. I guess that wasn't the case.

It feels as if this is the end of a chapter. Part of me wonders if I'm ready for this....