Loss

I've been a basketcase all week. Irritable, irrational, emotional and crazy could all be words used to describe me. I know in time the pain is supposed to decrease but in the process I have unknowingly damaged another friendship. I no longer have the comfort of knowing that the two people that meant the most to me in my life are in my corner.

I know there is all this tragedy in the world right now but I can't seem to focus on anything but the recent loss I have endured. I can't believe he has 'shut the door'. It's over and I can't do anything about it except give him what he wants.

In my honest attempt to reach out I have turned my life up side down and have slid into the emotional hell I finally thought I was emerging from.

I hate this shit.