Anger

I sent back some understanding crap back to you so you could be ok with this. So you could just carry on with your life and not deal with the drama of what I truly feel but I'm really pissed. I'm really hurt and angry that I'm not worth even a hello??

I know for a fact now that you are not the guy I always thought you were. It would have changed everything.... I mean, EVERYTHING. I should have told you how I really felt so many years ago and not gave a crap about you or your family. I should have just done what I wanted instead of what I knew to be right. I should have told her the truth!

Now I'm the wrong one? How convenient that you get everything and I'm stuck with your broken promises of C R A P.

I'm so MAD at you. I want to burn everything you ever gave me and erase any evidence of the bullshit you spewed to me for the past 17 years.

I was nothing but an excuse to leave the reality of whatever you created for yourself. When push came to shove, it was all a bunch of bullshit and lies.

I put you higher than anyone else in my life. To think - you were just like everyone else....