Not you.....

I feel like my heart has broken and I seriously can't stop crying.
I lost my best friend today.

They didn't die in the physical sense but I guess it feels as if they did. I can't believe it's over. I mean, over.

All the juicy gossip, the laughter and the big bear hugs. The knowing smile before I even said something because he knew just what I was thinking.

Dude - this sucks. I hate that this is real and happening. I mean, we haven't spoken for so long but part of me hoped that things would go back to normal. Fate always brought us back. Always. Always!

How can this be happening? This happens to other people - not us!

I kept every letter.
I kept every card.
I kept every postcard.
I kept every picture.
I kept every song.
I kept everything you ever made me.
I kept every smile in my heart.
I kept every hug in my pocket.
I kept you in my mind.

You're in my soul. I told our stories. You're the guy that always made things happy. Me happy.

Life had thrown it's punches and we both made stupid mistakes but we always had each other. No matter what. We were gonna be old and tell jokes to eachother. We were gonna be there.

You can't just leave me like this! Without a goodbye. Without a hug. Without a smile. Without you.

Without us!