Anger

Sometimes, the anger that builds inside of us when not released can be cancerous to our bodies. This isn't proven but has been a medical theory. It is said that by holding in anger or despair our bodies will react accordingly. I'm not sure if this is something I truely believe but I can say that my body has been reacting to the emotional situations in my life right now.

The feeling of liberation is still there but is clouded by the despair I feel from the betrayel of a very dear friend of mine. I'm talking about someone that I wanted to be more than a friend. Of course he didn't want the same thing as I did but we still maintained a close friendship. I haven't really talked about him a whole lot on here because it wasn't something that I needed to truely get out of my system.

I'm sad and hurt. I'm dissappointed and confused, however, most of all I feel numb. I've expressed this to him. I'm unsure of everything right now but I do know that I care about him and what happens in his life.

Feelings have changed though. I just don't know how much.